It happens every year around this time, when school starts and Matt goes back to work. I get stuck somewhere between critical and overly ambitious. I want to do it ALL. And I want to do it all RIGHT.
It might be called perfectionism or just plain selfishness but it crops up especially after time away from home. You see, it’s easy to “keep on keepin’ on” when I’m in the middle of it all but time away from my normal life makes the imperfections more visible. Sometimes I wish I could get my blinders more firmly set and forget the things that bug me.
Like hard work undone. Like ongoing struggles or slow learned lessons. Even the little things like shoes in a heap under not on the shoe rack or a plastic superhero’s legs trapped under the couch. It could have been cute if I hadn’t stubbed my toe on him.
Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
I blow it. I buck and thrash ripping the blinders free and sometimes shoes left in my path go flying.
Some people need an easy button but I think I need an un-stuck button. A jump start. When I start to stutter and grumble I need a jolt of reality to get me going again. Because when I really think about it I’d rather have shoes in the way then less time with my family. I’d rather keep writing than write perfect. I’d rather re-establish a good habit than never do anything difficult. I don’t want an easy button but I sure need a kick in the pants sometimes.
Instead of just doing lip service, saying I’ll ask God each day what He has in store I’m going to write it down and commit to prayer, each of my goals. Whether a clean bathroom or another chapter written, I want to go where He goes.
What button do you need?